"Ich hab' getraumt. Wir waren zusammen in Traum. Wir waren Bruder und Schwester; Mutter und Vater, Frau und Mann... und... wir beide waren die Beides."

"Du bist verrückt ."

"Ja, naturlich. Veilleicht ist alles Falsche, aber ich dachte, daß ist Glück."

"Ich glaub' nicht ins Glück..."

Der Krieger und Die Kaiserin

You Can’t Find Peace

( Pale 3 featuring Skin )

I sit and wait
While you fight this man
You taste when kissing me
I used this time
To pace through our days
Before our life begins
Then you'll see that I'm your god
Corrupt your soul and
Let the blood go

You can't find peace
Without my persistence
I'll break the resistance I see in you
There's no release
Without my incredible resilience
To your will to grieve

Believe in me
I won't crush your beauty
I'll just lick it clean
Don't try to fall
Cuz I'll crawl the way
You're harder than I'll show
Devastation I will find
Dreaming afraid by your side

You can't find peace
Without my persistence
I'll break the resistance I see in you
There's no release
Without my incredible resilience
To your will to grieve

You can't find peace
Without my persistence
I'll break the resistance I see in you
There's no release
Without my incredible resilience
To your will to grieve

Well... I feel like doing a few random things with colours and so on tonight, so do excuse the whole lot of random-ness that happens here :P

Tonight the most annoying thing happened. I was in the bathroom and felt a drop of cold wetness fall onto my hand. I flicked on the light and looked up at the ceiling and... water... coming through the ceiling. I grab the chest and hop up onto it to get a closer look at the patch where the water is coming through, and I touch the spot gently and my fingers almost go right through it.

The whole spot has rotted and was just being covered nicely by some paint, which was split when I moved in here, so I guess I should have thought about that earlier, but I'm not really the most home handy-minded person.

There are a few other problems with the house, which I really should talk to the people I'm renting it from about. One major other thing is that the gutters are falling off. They look like they've never been cleaned, and there's stuff growing in them! And the one on the back has been slowly moving further and further away from the house *sigh*

So frustrating being a renter. I mean, the blurring of responsibilities bugs me, and I also want to have some sort of permanancy in terms of life-style and living. But oh well.

Thank goodness for Black Books :)

It was weird last night, though - the guy who played Jonas in Martin Chuzzlewit (the BBC production) was in it, I'm quite sure! I love it how Fran and Manny pretend to be American tourists and totally kick ass at the poker game *lol*

The best line was from Bernard: 'I have spoken!'

Hmm... this is a potentially useful line *lol* As opposed to last week, where the best thing was, 'Make them leave now, or I'll stop playing 'Kill them all' in my mind and just go with what feels natural!'

:P

Yes, I have a warped sense of humour :) And right now, I want Agrum. Icy cold Agrum. Mmm...

Ooh, now Tony's on MSN... to stay up late to unholy hours or not? :P

Arrrghhh!!!

As silly as it might sound, there's one 'friend' I have who really infuriates me.

He'll never let me be silly any more. If I say something flippant he just patronises me and tries to make me feel bad about not being sensible and adult and neat and orderly and reigned in.

Sure, he's older than me. But still, I have friends who are over 60 who are still amazingly funny, have a great sense of humour and can appreciate the amusing things or the things that make no sense in life.

*sigh*

I am beginning to hate the way he makes me feel, so I'm thinking of breaking off contact with him. We'll see what happens. Maybe he'll stop being patronising sometime soon. Maybe I'll become a rationally-acting, ordered and sensible person.

And perhaps monkies are now flying backwards past the window in formation singing, 'Oh I do love to be beside the seaside!'

(Not that I'm never serious, I simply don't like to be serious all of the time, btw)

Der Krieger und die Kaiserin

I think I may have just found my second favourite movie of all time (first being Lola Rennt). Last night on SBS, Der Krieger und die Kaiserin was their feature movie, so I recorded it.

A perfect movie for when I'm feeling so hollow.

I really enjoy Tom Tykwer's directing style, and I love Franka Potente's acting. The story is rather strange but incredibly beautiful. Almost beyond words :)

The soundtrack is really well done and does a great job at making you feel restless, like crying from sheer frustratedly content aloneness, falling through the air...

The movie itself raises quite a lot of questions about life, which aren't as obvious as the ones that Lola Rennt raises about time, chance and life.

Definitely a 9.95 out of 10.

And I'm about to start watching it again :)

If you can get to see it, don't be put off by it being in another language or anything silly like that. It's definitely worth it :)

Oh, and check out Winter Schlaefers and Lola Rennt too while you're about it :)